In May 2009

looks a bit simple^^
guess when more time, i will do it a bit better, like the march one

ole, king of spam again (lol)

:> i should post less?

oh well, chobi will get it ^^ he deserves it

and angie...

Funny Avatar!!!!

WoW...

already place 5

Gratz!

Mahow dont be modst I knoe you wonna be the spam king forever xD

actualy, i have diffrent reasons for being active here :)

my reason for being active here that I like talking with friends :o it got nothing to do with taking frist place in anything :? I hate first places

your on second spot, is that good too? :>

ye totaly fine wow xD you know second place gets the silver medal wich is more beautifullt han the golden one :)

hmmz, but the first place gets... ehm... ehm... angie! hah!

i haz something and you dont (lol!!!!)

xD

huh ?

explain this

when you get first place as spam post you get attention from angie i meant. (more then usual)

was suppose to be a small joke/motivation.

humzzzzzzzzzzz yeee but I don't like to be ceter of the atention as well :?

im pretty much thinking bout leaving the spot of attention im in now. It costed me someone for the last time.

You cant leave us alone like this

i know.. thats why im trying to get that one person back. But it its most likely alot of things will have to change, and im willing to do that.

yes the will is something important but making the first step is even mroe important so .. JUMP! go ahead and jump :)

ye there is a small problem with the jump part... if your not allowed/wanted.. why jump?

well thats the barier you have to cross. Ppl always put bariers in their minds of what they should/should not do and sometimes you gotta push that barier little furter than where it is at this moment. I knew one girl once.. I met her at one firend birthday's party. She is cute nice and I mean rly rly rly I like her alot. But we saw eachpther just twice and there goes the qeustion should I ask her out? She doesn't know me proabbaly she may think I'm weird(wich I am wow xD) and am does she like me? what does she thinks of me. Does she want me t make that frst step or not?
And thats something yous ee ery often in the movies. And in most of those movies there is that one person that says those words that sound like "ye ye but if you don't ask her you will never know the answer to all those questions" or soemthing like that. You can always step back if that jump ain't rly wanted. But you won't know if its wonted or not unless you make it right? so once again "JUMP! Go ahead and jump."

the situation is diffrent if you had that perfect girl and made a mess of it over and over. Eventualy at one point, you gottta understand that she dont want anymore. Then what you do? Feel like some zombie all day, dont smile anymore, dont do anything you would do anymore, ect

In a situation like that... you dont know what your suppose to do. Got any advice on that? :x

well, if u dont mind static a point further on this situation, id like to give advice aswell if i can help xD

feel free to ask in an way, I and the other sure gladly support you in any situation D:

well like i said, perfect girl you could wish for. You made alot of mistakes already towards her, you had already alot of 2nd chances. Then the point comes where you screw up again. But this time, it will be the last time. She walks out and doesnt want to talk to you anymore. You screwed up the last time for her, she dont give you anymore chances and things have changed for her.

You on the other hand feel total sh!t for what you've did and cant live with the fact that you lost her, you wish she is happy but cant find a way with yourself as you dont want to lose her like that and cant forget her. You waste your days doing stupid things, writing emails that you'll eventualy just delete again as she told she dont want to get spammed. To make a long story short, you are losing it.

my question is... is there any way you can fix that again?

From where i stand, it seems impossible and you deserve to rot in hell for what you've done to her.

Im open for any advice that could help.

i just doubt it will help

no one deserve to rot n hell >.<

and everything is able to fix, when u keep showing you want to, like chobi say never give it up xP

In one way it can be a warning, which say u better stop at all :x

In other way it can be a test, which is going to see how far you able to go :>

I dont know much about your situation, but id like to say, we girls like to doing such tests but be sure what is the truth in yours, and about the spamming, yeah i guess if someone make you clear to not spam, i dont think he/she want you do anyway

think you know more about this girl than i do, cant tell which is her purpose =(

that might be my longest post till now

till now.....

"In one way it can be a warning, which say u better stop at all :x"

-> im hoping its not.

"In other way it can be a test, which is going to see how far you able to go :>"

-> oh plz let it be that :x

I can assure you, shes worth it. I havent had a moment gone by that im not thinking of her and also not a moment went by that ive cursed myself for my mistake.

Maybe i should give it time... i dunno. Im not even sure if im doing any good asking for advice here, though its appriciated.

thnx for the advice.

im trying not to spam her, but you all can see how large posts i make here and how much i write :x so its rather hard not to do so.